on my mind

First on my post's agenda. Man-hating self-proclaimed "feminists". Now I don't wish to generalize, so I can only talk about the one that I have had a good amount of contact with. I work with this lady and although she seems to be pretty cold to many people, she just seems to deplore all of men. Although I am far from perfect, I have done a rather large amount of work on myself to eradicate possessive and sexist projections and delusions that I have about women. I get rattled and confused when I am still despised, even when I feel that I am being incredibly mature and patient about the situation. Granted, I don't face nearly the same amount of sexism that many women in today's society face. Not nearly enough to warrant any level of complaints. I think the biggest piss off for me is the sheer hypocrisy of a man-hating "feminist". It is completely counterproductive to any healthy agenda that the idea of feminism entails. I think in the first post I said I would write this as if talking to myself instead of a large audience...it seems today I am speaking from a podium to a stadium of people, better keep that ego in check ;)

Let's end on a positive note though, one of the things that I have truly been blessed with since I have been on this path of self-discovery and self-improvement, is all of the great people that seem to appear in my life. Though there is one friend in particular, this is a little weird to post seeing as right now he is the only one who knows about this blog, but it's my really good friend, Jon. Since meeting Jon again at this point in my life I have learned a lot about myself. My entire life I have associated a large amount of trust with sexual activity. Needless to say, I didn't cultivate too many male relationships, and I never really learned how to have a healthy, non-sexual friendship with any female party. I've learned that I don't drop dead when I open up emotionally to somebody. I have also learned that other people have secrets just as dark as mine. This nurturing, safe, and balanced friendship has helped me bring the practice of a healthy friendship into other relationships in my life. i.e. family and other friends. Since I began my self-proclaimed spiritual journey, I have felt previous connections disintegrate as my life's values and motivations veered off in a vastly different direction from many people that I knew. Having somebody in the same spiritual, intellectual, and emotional space that I am in is incredibly valuable to me. So, thank you Jon, I love you man.

P.S. One of the things that I learned in this men's group is that when a person is talking, he must make a conscious effort to not generalize. Instead of saying when you do this he would say when I do this, etc. Anyway, this is helping me a lot. I also think it improves my ability to accept other people have their own way of living life. All that I know about is my own experience.